You

Before I knew you I had this idea of love is. I knew I wanted it for myself. I saw it all around me. I wanted it so desperately I tried forcing it. When forcing it didn't work I figured I was stuck and it wasn't ment to be. Then from the moment I heard about you I wanted to meet you. Then I got to hear your voice. It made my heart smile more then I could have known. Talking to you I couldn't stop smiling no matter how much it frustrated me. But it only drew my desire to meet you so much more. I did everything in my power not to be excited when I knew I was going to meet you. At first I could only sneak glances at you. But I basically ended up gaucking at you. I didn't care about anything else at that moment. Only that you were so much more then I could of hoped for. I honestly don't remember what all I said in my head or out loud. All I know is I basically had no filter. When I finally got to meet you in person. Every little thing you did enticed me. I remember wanting to impress you. I didn't know it at the time but you already unlocked my heart then. To me that day ended way to soon. To think just four months later. You showed me what kind of love I deserved. My mind and heart knew that you are what I wanted. I wanted you to know that I'm yours. That I fell so hard and fast for you. You became my angel the day we met. You are every love story, every love song, every love I've ever seen, and every love I ever dreamed about. I could go on about everything I felt and everything I feel now. But as for this moment you shown me what true love is and keep doing so.

At 16 weeks old

Wow your already 16 weeks. Right now I know you can't wait to try foods. You love sleeping where it's nice and cool or in mom arms. You gotten to the point that if I try to put you down while your sleeping you'll wake right up. You basically sleep though the night. Unless your growing. Your still teathing like crazy. You love seeing other kids. You found your feet and toes. You play with them constantly. Your eyes are still blue and wondering if they are going to stay that away. Your getting better at being around other people. Your spit up calmed down a bit. It still has its ups and downs. You went from loving tummy time to absolutely hating it lol. You'll tolerate for a little bit then you get frustrated and want to be held and usually feed and take a nap after. Your still my stubborn little boy. You love water. I think bath time is your favorite. You love looking at yourself in the mirror. You'll just smile and giggle at yourself. Your babbling more. It's adorable to hear your voice. But you also get quite a bit of nightmares. You love standing more then anything. You did keep your own balance once for a little bit. You'll get there. You roll to your side and then back on to your back. Your getting better about gripping. You are growing up so quickly. Mommy loves you!

Whole lot longer

I feel like I was gone a whole lot longer then 2 days. He grew to the point I'm putting more clothes into the outgrown box. He went up another size in diapers. He went from eatting 4oz to almost 8oz. Which is sadly more then I produce. That's not including everything he doing more physically.. I'm very mixed emotions about it.

3 more days

3 more days before the wedding and I'm sitting here going everything is falling into place except 1 detail. I don't have someone to marry us. The person we did have lined out ended up not being able to make it. I'm halfway freaking out a bit lol. I need to finish the thing for Medicade or kai and I won't have it after today. But today we will also hear when quin should be starting his new job. So I'm kinda mixed feelings. A whole lot we need to and not a whole lot of time to do it in. Need to do another dress fitting and hair and makeup stuff. Also go buy a little outfit for Kai and go dress shopping with lizzie. Kinda can't wait for after the wedding 2 days of freedom with trying to deal with the separation from kai for a few days. Then everything hopefully goes back to normal. Well normal as it can and less stressed lol.