2014 year review

            Little about me:
1. Age... I'm 21
2. Favorite color.... purple
3. Favorite 2014 book... last of walk series or last of house of night series

          Highlights of 2014:

1. Greatest lessons learned... sometimes the best thing in life isn't always the easiest.
2. Hardest thing this year... letting go of people. Some you still want in life and some you had to.
3. Favorite memory... I have a lot of favorites this year. Wouldn't know what to pick.
4. What I loved about 2014... being able to start over and get to truly start being myself again
    
              Looking forward to in 2015

1. Want to learn... How to better myself. How to open up more. And whatever this year has to teach me.
2. Want to get better at... crocheting, giving my opinion, and growing as a parent.
3. Goals for 2015... don't think I'm going set one this year.

When your away

When your away I feel frozen. I feel like there's a blizzard all around me. That I'm just waiting for all the snow to melt. Then when I'm with you. You melt everything away. The more I with you the more away the snow goes. It goes from basically deep winter to spring. As I stay around you my spring turns into summer. Then there's the days you have to go again. My summer goes into a fall. My days get colder. Fall doesn't stay for to long before winter hits again. I'm back to being frozen. Surrounded by the blizzard. Waiting until my snow melts again.

My guy

How I ended up with such an amazing man? I have completely no idea. All I know is he hooked me from from the first time I heard his voice. That phone call I argued about taking. I'm glad I did. His voice was captiviting, his stubbornness was oddly adorable, and he was so easy to talk to. Then I got to see him. He was so handsome. And now 2 years later he is completely mine and we're expecting a little one. I know I skipped a bit. But I cant see my life without him.

You don't understand

I don't text you this much cuz I feel like I have to. It's that I want to. It doesn't help that basically your the only one I have to talk to. I hold myself back on texting you as it is. It's been my way to comfort myself not being able to be around you. I can't throw myself into work. Or really anything. With my dad being here I feel like I'm back in jr high high school. I just wish I can make you understand on why I text how I do and how much I do. It has nothing to do with the past. Hey you can ask about any one from slc and they can tell you how much I texted when I lived there. I'll work on slowing down even more. Just remember that the last time I was slowing down you started to bug me that other people was texting you more then I was. But I think I'm really going to let you go until bed. Just know it's not that I want to. It's that if I'm going to slow down more that I need to do this.

Missing him

Wanting my baby home. I know he working to provide for us. But I'm missing him so much. If it wasn't for doctor appointments. I would have gone with him. It's not easy being away from him and being 25 weeks pregnant. We're both hating it. Skype is helping and so is talking to him. Don't know how much longer I can take this though.

Thankfulness November 2014

1. I'm thankful for all the changes that has happened this year. It wasn't easy but I wouldn't want to go back

2. I'm thankful for my guy. I wouldn't know what to do without him. He been my knight and more. He is my biggest supporter and shows me how I should be treated.

3. I'm so thankful for this little one inside me. It was a long shot that I could ever have kids and so I am thankful for getting this opportunity. This is the hardest thing I have gone through and I wouldn't change it.

4. I'm thankful for my house. Being able to have a roof over my head and a place to go is wonderful.

5. I'm thankful for technology. It's been helping me stay connected to my guy while he gone for work. Also it's been keeping me distracted. I also get to know what's going on with my friends and family that's not close to me.

6. I'm thankful for my family. They mean so much to me. They do more for me then I could ever ask of them. I love them all.

7. I'm thankful for my cat. Glad I got some time with just him this week. He is such and old and loving cat. (19yrs)

8. I'm thankful for knowing myself and my emotions. It's nice being able to control myself in most situations.

9. I'm thankful for my faith. It's been something I can count on since I was little.

10. I'm thankful for the people that served. Either now or in the past. They do more for this country then most of us will ever know.

11. I'm thankful for my friends. Even though we don't hang out much. I'm glad you are all in my life.

12. I'm thankful for the changes of weather. For all it can teach us and the different beauties in all of them.

13. I'm thankful for all the difference everyone has. Yes we all have some of the same stuff. But it's our differences that make us unique.

14. I'm thankful for charities. Until you helped one out you don't see how much work it takes. But when you go to fundraisers for them the love in the room is so strong it's really something special.

15. I'm thankful school spirit. When you see it not just in or around the school but basically the entire town has it. It's something truly amazing.

16. im thankful for the blessings I have gotten in my life. I wouldn't know what my life would be like without them. I also wouldn't have as much of an appreciation for life as well.

17. I'm thankful for my heritage. I love knowing where my line has come from.

18. I'm thankful for all the support I get. I'm honored. I don't always think I deserve it. But im grateful I do.

19. I'm thankful for the people I have lost. They have touched me a great deal.

20. I'm thankful for medication. I probably could go the rest of the November saying why I'm thankful for it seeing it is such a wide category. Long thing short. I'm thankful for what's helping me through the pregancy. I'm also thankful for seeing what my body does without certain ones. And seeing how it has helped others.

21. I'm thankful for medical personal. They do so much for the world.

22. I'm thankful for stuffed animals. For how much they mean to me I will never grow out of them.

23. I'm thankful for the universe. It let's us see that's there's more out there then just us.

24. I'm thankful for animals. Most animals can teach us so much. They also can be a great blessing to us.

25. I'm thankful for bad days. You wouldn't appreciate a good day if you never had a bad day.

26. I'm thankful for air. Besides giving so much life to this world. It does so much more.

27. I'm thankful I got to spend this time of year with family. It's not often, but it's sure special to me when I do.

28. I'm thankful for food. I know not everyone has it. And I couldn't imagine being pregnant and not being able to get enough to control the hunger let alone the nausea.

29. I'm thankful that at least once a year we all look past our wants and see just how much we take for granted.

30. I'm thankful I got to raise the little boy that I did. Even though I miss him dearly and wish he was still in my life. I'm at least thankful for the opportunity. It was one thing I wouldn't ever want to give up. No matter how hard it is on me. But it's making me stronger. Little by little.

Love Quote I believe I just made up

You are my anchor that keeps me from floating away and I am your spark that keeps you from burning out.