Terrified

Right now I'm so scared that one day you will no longer want me. That you will see what an emotional wreck and unable to do anything right person I am. That you will see how there are so many more beautiful girls then me. That you will relized I was just a fling and your heart belongs to someone else. I'm scared of losing you. The only other person I'm scared of losing is our son. I've overcome so many fears of mine that you too are the two I wouldn't handle well. I know it's less then 50 days tell our wedding. And i know with you its going to be magical. But  it's a fear I can't shake. The fear of losing you. The fear that you die or don't want me anymore. It eats me up so much. That nights like tonight I having a hard time shaking it.