I cant

I cant ... I cant... I just cant..  needing someone here to watch my son. Cuz I cant. Someone needs to take this knife away. Cuz I cant. Someone needs to show me that I can. Cuz I cant. I cant stop cutting. I cant stop crying. I cant stop hurting.  I cant stop hurting the people I care about. Im not strong enough for this life. I cant even stop lying. I just cant do this anymore. I keep praying for my life to end for almost 4 months... I think thats way to long. I just cant do it anymore I cant. I just cant. I know its the coward way out but still. I cant. I know it will hurt people but I just cant.