What ended up happening wasnt easy. I am so pissed off at myself for the way I started acting last night. Honestly I still feel that away. I knew what I wanted. In the end I dont know how I got to where I am now or maybe it just hasnt sunk in. It went from me being stong enough mentally. To me letting go. In one night I went from pushing what I needed. To basically having no ring no relationship nothing. To me not being able to say bye again. I guess ill always be stuck in the cage because I cant let go completely. Each time except for the last I was finally content on being done. And now im stuck with the decision ive made. And my emotions that go with it. Maybe it more then that. But as I said im stuck. Part of me is happy. The rest is eatting me from the inside out.
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